My Self-esteem 🙍

Self-esteem is simply how you feel about yourself and how you judge your worth. This evaluation has a profound impact on the choices you make since it determines, to a great extent, what you consider yourself capable and worthy of doing. We all know that self-esteem sometimes referred to as self-worth or self-respect, can be an important part of success. Too little self-esteem can leave people feeling defeated or depressed. It can also lead people to make bad choices, fall into destructive relationships, or fail to live up to their full potential. Too much self-esteem, as exhibited in narcissistic personality disorder, can certainly be off-putting to others and can even damage personal relationships. Self-esteem levels at the extreme high and low ends of the spectrum can be harmful, so ideally, it's best to strike a balance somewhere in the middle. A realistic yet positive view of yourself is generally considered the ideal. 

So what our world have been deal with is people with low self-esteem. People with low self-esteem who feel poorly about themselves and judge themselves to be inferior to others. This kind of people are at risk then of not fulfilling their true potential in life. They may not take the initiative to set and pursue their personal goals. They may not put any effort into their education or careers, they may accept poor treatment from family, friends. Things like this cannot be avoided. But we still can overcome it with the right methods. 

As for me, I am a living testimony as to how growing up with negative self-esteem can spill over into your adult life and affect everything you say and do. People used to say that I wouldn’t amount to anything. I was brought up in a household where my family wasn't very supportive either so I had a very lonely childhood. When I finished high school and started the University I wasn't depressed I just had a lack of motivation I guess, and a very low self-esteem that took me a while to find out i had. Low self-esteem can be devastating, especially for children. If not dealt with, it can spill over into adulthood as it did to me. During my young adult years, I didn’t think too highly of myself and it showed in some of the choices I made and many of the things that I allowed into my life. My childhood low self-esteem began to slowly invade every part of my life and it led to negative results. 

At one point, I’ve became paranoid. I’m scared to face the public. I used to get pretty much a dry mouth, grind my teeth sometimes, and be nervous in social events. I thought that was just normal on me to live that way but I didn't feel good. Not just that, there is also time where I will starve myself for days and ended the day where I usually will eat a piece of bread and apple juice to keep me going. I looked at the mirror and couldn't stop feel disgusted with my appearance. My tummy stuck out, I didn’t fit those skinny jeans everyone else seemed to look so nice in. I don’t have a clear healthy skin and I get very nervous in every first encounter. I have always wish that I could be as beautiful as other girls. 

For me, in order to improve my self-esteem, I had to go to the root of the cause of my low self-esteem. It was necessary for me to fight the negative things that I was taught about myself, confront the negative situations that I was placed in and allowed myself to be in, and I also had to just accept that I, as an adult, was in control and without help, I would never begin to shake the shackles that my low self-esteem had on me. 

 

Low self-esteem could be overcome by learning to love yourself more than you probably should in order to make you feel you’re worth living. Be aware that your happiness is in your hands and everyone deserve to be happy. Besides that, you can’t simply take negative comments over yourself and be sad of it. Learn to not care about others opinion about yourself because they didn’t know you the way you do. Be proud of your body image. Because God created humans to be perfect differently. If you gone through failure and makes you scared to stand up for yourself, think again. If you, yourself didn't stood up and fight for your right, who else will stood up for you? It’s you! At some point, you have to realize that you are worth the best life possible and it is up to you to at least take the first step to ending whatever internal bondage is holding you back. It takes courage and determination to face your own fears and to seek help. You can be assured. However, once you do there will be no need to ever look back unless it is to help others.